Just want to say the semester is winding down to a close. Still got much cleaning and packing to do. I still got plenty of time in getting it all done. :) Just looking forward to heading home.
This year has been so far a year of changes for me. Got a new Truck, Miss Felicia which I have yet to drive. I feel bad for Felicia that she is waiting for me. lol. I know it is not good to leave a girl waiting. lol. :)
The Carolina Panthers have gotten a pretty big face lift within the organization. Just hope Newton will turn out well for Carolina. Part of me still believes Jimmy can do the job though. I hope somehow Steve Smith will still stay with the team. :(
I have been chatting with a girl and all I can say (knock on wood) we have been hitting it off. I want to see her this summer. There is a chance I can be not single anymore which would be a first for me.
Now my mom is looking for a vehicle for herself since Samson the second will be leaving the family.
So yes, this year has been a year of change. I am excited for it and looking to see how this change will play into my life. Sorry for not updating my blog as much. Been a bit busy.
Blessings,
Anthony
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Monday, May 2, 2011
The end is near?
No I am not meaning the end of the world is coming. But if you want me to play the sterotypical, Oh my goodness the End of the World is going to come, repent ye sinner, repent...ummm no thank you. When I mean the end is near because the fact is the school year is almost done. Hurray right? Well I start traveling home around May 25 but possibly will not be back at home until very early like 12am on the 27th. I will be spending the night in Fairbanks on the 25th but will be leaving really early on the 26th. Oh well, I will take advantage of the fast internet and nice comfy bed. Well not sure.. maybe I should not so I can sleep on the plane. :)
But yet when when I think about it, the end is not the end. Yes, I know that is album from one of my favorite bands called House of Heroes. Which is true when my summer vacation begins who knows what new adventures that will be in it. I am kind of excited, because part of me wants to do some traveling but all depends how much I have left in my savings. Buying that truck and insurance going up a bit because I have a semi-new truck took a good chunk of my savings away. But it is all good, during the next school year I will be able to re-coop it. :)
Yeah this school year was a bit tough, dealing with some situations I did not deal with from last school year. But God is Good. :) I feel like I have grown closer to God this year and connected with some pretty awesome guys, especially those in my community. As much as I am a excited for all the new changes that will be happening at the job. I will be looking forward to having the time off.
I am not sure should I really get a cellphone or not. I would like to but not sure. If I do get a cellphone it might be around the end of the summer or just wait until the new iPhone 5 comes out and all the hype does down. I will have to more likely go with something from AT&T because that is only nationwide coverage that is around here but same time, it can be laggy. I have gone this far without one, but part of me would like to have one. Just going to pray about it and see is it something God wants me to really have or not. Can be practical yeah a bit. But coverage here is not like back at home. When somebody wants to chat with me there or say anything there will be like 3-5 second time delay. Really worth it to spend that kind of money a month on something can not really fully enjoy especially when data plan does not really exist here? In NY yeah it does but in part of Alaska I am not not so much. If I send a text message they might get it until couple days or even a week later. Yikes I know. But if I connect to the internet without data plan I could send an e-mail faster.
Take care all sorry for not updating this as much. I am not burned out from writing. Just stinks because when I want to write something I am at work and can not do it. Oh well. :)
God is good and thanks for Reading
Anthony
But yet when when I think about it, the end is not the end. Yes, I know that is album from one of my favorite bands called House of Heroes. Which is true when my summer vacation begins who knows what new adventures that will be in it. I am kind of excited, because part of me wants to do some traveling but all depends how much I have left in my savings. Buying that truck and insurance going up a bit because I have a semi-new truck took a good chunk of my savings away. But it is all good, during the next school year I will be able to re-coop it. :)
Yeah this school year was a bit tough, dealing with some situations I did not deal with from last school year. But God is Good. :) I feel like I have grown closer to God this year and connected with some pretty awesome guys, especially those in my community. As much as I am a excited for all the new changes that will be happening at the job. I will be looking forward to having the time off.
I am not sure should I really get a cellphone or not. I would like to but not sure. If I do get a cellphone it might be around the end of the summer or just wait until the new iPhone 5 comes out and all the hype does down. I will have to more likely go with something from AT&T because that is only nationwide coverage that is around here but same time, it can be laggy. I have gone this far without one, but part of me would like to have one. Just going to pray about it and see is it something God wants me to really have or not. Can be practical yeah a bit. But coverage here is not like back at home. When somebody wants to chat with me there or say anything there will be like 3-5 second time delay. Really worth it to spend that kind of money a month on something can not really fully enjoy especially when data plan does not really exist here? In NY yeah it does but in part of Alaska I am not not so much. If I send a text message they might get it until couple days or even a week later. Yikes I know. But if I connect to the internet without data plan I could send an e-mail faster.
Take care all sorry for not updating this as much. I am not burned out from writing. Just stinks because when I want to write something I am at work and can not do it. Oh well. :)
God is good and thanks for Reading
Anthony
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Wow...
Well it has been quite a while since I have updated this blog. Things have been busy a bit and part of me was not sure what to say. I am not running out on stuff just felt kind of a bit lazy you can say. I know shame on me right?
Well a few days ago I turned 25, and felt a bit old saying that. Blah. On the bright side being 24 there were some highs and lows, but God was great through it all. For that I am thankful. :) Part of me wonders what would being 25 be like? Would this be the year I might have my first girl friend? Would this be the year where Carolina Panthers will do better? I wonder what new adventures and adversity await for being 25. I mean 24 felt a bit different and more challenging of a year than 23. So I am excited again to see what being 25 has instore. :)
I do have a semi-new truck waiting for me (Felicia) which I am quite excited about. I heard she is a big girl (big truck) so really excited to see her in person. :) The plan is only use the Truck during tim back within summer break then toss it into storage a month later (dad will). Thus when the day comes for me to leave Alaska, and I will be living somewhere else, the truck will still be a bit young and dependable. :) After all I was blessed enough to pay for it cash, did not have to take out any loans. But my saving sure did take a hit. But with time I will resave back up. The though stands is that if I do not have a girl within 2 years, I might get a Mustang GT. Only God knows the future and that is a good thing too. :)
Also, a month from now I should be home I believe, that is kind of exciting. I do enjoy my job, but I do miss civilization. I do miss hanging around with people my age and talking. I miss some of the restaurants. :( Oh how I am looking forward to be having Buffalo chicken wings. lol. I am looking forward to be helping out around the house. Especially cutting the grass and washing the vehicles. :)
Spiritually, I am feeling, I am doing pretty good. I am in the book of Leviticus. I am trying to take things slow studying the books of the Pentateuch and just allowing God to work within me what He wants to do.
Well, I hope everybody is having a great day when reading this. :)
Blessings,
Anthony :)
Well a few days ago I turned 25, and felt a bit old saying that. Blah. On the bright side being 24 there were some highs and lows, but God was great through it all. For that I am thankful. :) Part of me wonders what would being 25 be like? Would this be the year I might have my first girl friend? Would this be the year where Carolina Panthers will do better? I wonder what new adventures and adversity await for being 25. I mean 24 felt a bit different and more challenging of a year than 23. So I am excited again to see what being 25 has instore. :)
I do have a semi-new truck waiting for me (Felicia) which I am quite excited about. I heard she is a big girl (big truck) so really excited to see her in person. :) The plan is only use the Truck during tim back within summer break then toss it into storage a month later (dad will). Thus when the day comes for me to leave Alaska, and I will be living somewhere else, the truck will still be a bit young and dependable. :) After all I was blessed enough to pay for it cash, did not have to take out any loans. But my saving sure did take a hit. But with time I will resave back up. The though stands is that if I do not have a girl within 2 years, I might get a Mustang GT. Only God knows the future and that is a good thing too. :)
Also, a month from now I should be home I believe, that is kind of exciting. I do enjoy my job, but I do miss civilization. I do miss hanging around with people my age and talking. I miss some of the restaurants. :( Oh how I am looking forward to be having Buffalo chicken wings. lol. I am looking forward to be helping out around the house. Especially cutting the grass and washing the vehicles. :)
Spiritually, I am feeling, I am doing pretty good. I am in the book of Leviticus. I am trying to take things slow studying the books of the Pentateuch and just allowing God to work within me what He wants to do.
Well, I hope everybody is having a great day when reading this. :)
Blessings,
Anthony :)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
from her eyes: a prostitute's perspective
from her eyes: a prostitute's perspective
This is from a friend that is being used by God in powerful way. My heart goes out to these kind of women. Wondered what made them really to get into this industry? How can they be rescued out of it. I know God can save them!
This is from a friend that is being used by God in powerful way. My heart goes out to these kind of women. Wondered what made them really to get into this industry? How can they be rescued out of it. I know God can save them!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Just saying
I know many people that read my entries, some of them might sound a bit of helpless romantic. I might be a bit yeah, but thing is I am not the kind of guy that wants to rush into a relationship. I do believe within everything it should start as friends and within that friendship God is the center of it. Within time if they really like each other then go for it. I disagree with society's view point of fast food like relationships.
I want the relationship be taken care of like a big turkey dinner. It takes quite a bit of time and energy to the whole thing but it is more filling and substancial. But it is time that you two really get to know each other. There will be times of joy you will grow closer to God and each other. Also, there will be hard times but through the hard times it will allow us to grow closer to God and to each other.
I hope I am making much sense... maybe so or maybe not.
Till next time.
-Anthony
I want the relationship be taken care of like a big turkey dinner. It takes quite a bit of time and energy to the whole thing but it is more filling and substancial. But it is time that you two really get to know each other. There will be times of joy you will grow closer to God and each other. Also, there will be hard times but through the hard times it will allow us to grow closer to God and to each other.
I hope I am making much sense... maybe so or maybe not.
Till next time.
-Anthony
Friday, April 8, 2011
Not giving up
A friend wrote to me that they just want to give up on love and everybody is a fake. This was my response back. It is a bit scattered writings a bit, I have to admit. lol. But hey at least I did not do the normal Christian thing writing, well I will pray for you and keep your head up.
Not true...and I am sorry you feel that way, I might not totally understand what you are writing about because I do not know the situation. Hence I will try and not say I understand what you are going through because I do not.
I believe in love and it does hold together and does not whither away. Though I will admit I kind of wonder where is that girl out there for me, but I know there is more to love than just guy and girl. People might say what about saying love for money, ah but when you think of it is it really pure? When I think of love I will have to compare it to 1 Corinthians 13. Write more about that a bit later.
What happens is that we do live in a fallen world, and the after affects of it is there. We do want to seek somebody genuine out there. But always know that, there will be some flaws in others, just as much there are flaws in us. I will admit I am not Mr. Perfect. I am far from it.
Not everybody is a fake, sometimes people though do not say the full truth because they do not know how other people will react. They do not want to feel vulnerable again. To feel rejection, because when we feel rejection it does hurt. I cry many of times. We as humans, we want to know and have some type of control. But in love there is no selfish control.
Love is an inward motivation and outward reflection especially in 1 Corinthians 13. I am not some love doctor, I might not totally understand love. But that is okay because I want my actions over all to reflect Christ's teaching. It is hard, I will not deny it, I can not do it on my own but need the Holy Spirit to do the mending, the molding and the guiding. But do not expect a non-Christian to totally understand love, though it has been a debatable topic especially at my college. But when there Holy Spirit is there molding a believer they are something different. Even we as Christians I know do not have it all right at times. Sometimes our motivates were not be hurtful but our actions were. Thus I do believe that is when we need to feel more close with the Spirit so He can point that out to us.
I refuse to give up on love. Especially when I was told am I not attractive, or smart enough. You can have all the great physical features, but to have a heart of gold and is selfless that is something rare.
To me Love to me is sticking by a person when everything is going down the drain. Love is delighting in hearing great news and celebrating with them. Love is to show compassion to others who are in need. Love is when someone says mean things, that you do not but respond with words of hope and compassion. I might not have it completely right though, I am again not a perfect guy.
I refuse to give up on love. I know what it feels like to be lonely and just nobody cares but I have felt God's presence to make me feel I am not alone. I am an only child and do not have much of a family right now, whatever is left of them I do love them. But I have felt his love encourage my heart to move on even when I feel it is so vulnerable and hurt. I think of Christ's sacrifice and how that was out of love for humanity. He could of had angels to save him, but did not.
Also, I have seen how God provided people in my life to encourage me.
About giving you heart, yeah it does stink to open yourself to be vulnerable like that. This goes back I remember what Rob Bell wrote in his book Sex God--chapter she ran into the bathroom. He wrote that when we feel heart broken, God understands that feeling. He reaches out to humanity with a cure to save them, but many of them want to continue drinking the poison that hurts them. Here is God saying, I love you and want have a relationship with again, lets fix this brokeness, some again go to God, others will run off crying.
Love gives people a choice, if we do not give people a choice then it is not true love. It is a choice that person makes not me, love gives people that power control, you do not hold it yourself.
I hope some of this makes sense, maybe it does, maybe it does not. I am not perfect or sometype of a love doctor. I refuse to give in to what society thinks about love (all about physical attraction). I refuse to become a male that looks a female just as an object to fill his craving. I want to be different, I want to be the change. I might not get it right at times with words I say to help others or might not have experience like those have with relationships. But I want to be the difference that gives God the glory. I will try
Not true...and I am sorry you feel that way, I might not totally understand what you are writing about because I do not know the situation. Hence I will try and not say I understand what you are going through because I do not.
I believe in love and it does hold together and does not whither away. Though I will admit I kind of wonder where is that girl out there for me, but I know there is more to love than just guy and girl. People might say what about saying love for money, ah but when you think of it is it really pure? When I think of love I will have to compare it to 1 Corinthians 13. Write more about that a bit later.
What happens is that we do live in a fallen world, and the after affects of it is there. We do want to seek somebody genuine out there. But always know that, there will be some flaws in others, just as much there are flaws in us. I will admit I am not Mr. Perfect. I am far from it.
Not everybody is a fake, sometimes people though do not say the full truth because they do not know how other people will react. They do not want to feel vulnerable again. To feel rejection, because when we feel rejection it does hurt. I cry many of times. We as humans, we want to know and have some type of control. But in love there is no selfish control.
Love is an inward motivation and outward reflection especially in 1 Corinthians 13. I am not some love doctor, I might not totally understand love. But that is okay because I want my actions over all to reflect Christ's teaching. It is hard, I will not deny it, I can not do it on my own but need the Holy Spirit to do the mending, the molding and the guiding. But do not expect a non-Christian to totally understand love, though it has been a debatable topic especially at my college. But when there Holy Spirit is there molding a believer they are something different. Even we as Christians I know do not have it all right at times. Sometimes our motivates were not be hurtful but our actions were. Thus I do believe that is when we need to feel more close with the Spirit so He can point that out to us.
I refuse to give up on love. Especially when I was told am I not attractive, or smart enough. You can have all the great physical features, but to have a heart of gold and is selfless that is something rare.
To me Love to me is sticking by a person when everything is going down the drain. Love is delighting in hearing great news and celebrating with them. Love is to show compassion to others who are in need. Love is when someone says mean things, that you do not but respond with words of hope and compassion. I might not have it completely right though, I am again not a perfect guy.
I refuse to give up on love. I know what it feels like to be lonely and just nobody cares but I have felt God's presence to make me feel I am not alone. I am an only child and do not have much of a family right now, whatever is left of them I do love them. But I have felt his love encourage my heart to move on even when I feel it is so vulnerable and hurt. I think of Christ's sacrifice and how that was out of love for humanity. He could of had angels to save him, but did not.
Also, I have seen how God provided people in my life to encourage me.
About giving you heart, yeah it does stink to open yourself to be vulnerable like that. This goes back I remember what Rob Bell wrote in his book Sex God--chapter she ran into the bathroom. He wrote that when we feel heart broken, God understands that feeling. He reaches out to humanity with a cure to save them, but many of them want to continue drinking the poison that hurts them. Here is God saying, I love you and want have a relationship with again, lets fix this brokeness, some again go to God, others will run off crying.
Love gives people a choice, if we do not give people a choice then it is not true love. It is a choice that person makes not me, love gives people that power control, you do not hold it yourself.
I hope some of this makes sense, maybe it does, maybe it does not. I am not perfect or sometype of a love doctor. I refuse to give in to what society thinks about love (all about physical attraction). I refuse to become a male that looks a female just as an object to fill his craving. I want to be different, I want to be the change. I might not get it right at times with words I say to help others or might not have experience like those have with relationships. But I want to be the difference that gives God the glory. I will try
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Simple dream (rough copy)
Honey, honey my sugar one
ah oh
I love you ever so
You make my skip a few beats
Your eyes locked next to mine
As my name rolls off those lips of yours
A smile is formed across mine
With the words we say
Building memories with each other
The serious chats, faith, theology, and goofiness
Your hands locked into mine
Feeling your fingers around mine
As I lightly squeeze yours as we walk along throughout time
Letting you know, I appreciate you throughout this moment.
You are a truly God's blessing
Though I have not met you
But one day I will change
I just can not wait for that day
ah oh
I love you ever so
You make my skip a few beats
Your eyes locked next to mine
As my name rolls off those lips of yours
A smile is formed across mine
With the words we say
Building memories with each other
The serious chats, faith, theology, and goofiness
Your hands locked into mine
Feeling your fingers around mine
As I lightly squeeze yours as we walk along throughout time
Letting you know, I appreciate you throughout this moment.
You are a truly God's blessing
Though I have not met you
But one day I will change
I just can not wait for that day
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